merry christmas

This year, I had no plans for Christmas, my family was all away doing their own thing and I was really excited about just taking two days to myself. I've been working a lot lately, and since I haven't had a day off since September, I was really wanting to just be by myself. No gift exchanges, no big dinners, just me. The NBA season starts on Christmas day, so I couldn't have thought of a better way to spend my first day off in months.

My family doesn't really exchange presents, I've got no girlfriend, no secret santa friends, so I went and bought my nephew a really big gift, and then bought myself a new tattoo (uh guys, I kind of can't stop right now, maybe that's another blog post?) and my plan for a single, curmudgeon Christmas was all set. So I thought.

In the last few days, I've realized how totally and utterly selfish of me that was. I'm really, really trying to be a better person each day. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, but rather than continue to rationalize those, it's important to be retrospective and astute to what's going on around me.

I've gotten some really great gifts from people I didn't expect to get them from. I've gotten some fantastic emails from some really great people wishing me a Merry Christmas. I've gotten dinner invitations, party invitations, holiday trips to the strip club invitations, and it's made me realize how great everyone and everything around me actually is (although the strip club isn't very great, just sayin).

I don't know what I'm trying to say here. I think it's that I feel like an idiot for wanting to have some selfish Christmas to myself. Maybe I've just figured out what Christmas is really all about. Spend it smoking weed with some homeless dudes, spend it with your family, spend it with friends, do whatever you feel, but it's just a time to be happy, have happy times, be with other people and do good things. It's not about sitting at home watching basketball, and I'm not going to sit at home and watch basketball.

I'm not going to be selfish on Christmas ever again, you guys.

Also, this fucking iPad rules. Love you Santa!